merry christmas...!

HO HO HO...................its Christmas time again......!
i wish Merry Christmas to all

COLORS...!

"COLORS", as we say may bring into our attention all the vibrancy and optimism but every time it may not have all the shades of rainbows in it. It may be black or it can be white .................. but for good or better it can have the shades of Greys too....

For better or worse life is soo very unpredictable.Sometime its motionless and the colors are dull. it has got wheels and wheels of colors, all the concentric rings of colors woven together in the stiff , coarse and flowing through the flesh and streams of our blood........mixing and mingling with stages of life and producing all together a new color that you have never seen.

It is said that the great Men were consumed with color of passion red, yellow , blue............Colors and flesh are inter weaved together into one soul .....the good or ugly is not the bottom line of judgment, what is noteworthy is the shades of success....the peaches and pinks ,the violets and mauves.The indigo and the flaming reds

Death may be gloomy and dark , but it is as pure and serene as the ripples of water moving to the shore, when the shades of black come alive with grey.It is darker in the beginning and becomes lighter by the end. The mystery of Black, unfolding with the serenity of Grey.......

Birth is purest as the shades of white...........with pearly and creamy, to as fresh as the dew on a lily.............to the golden.... and yellows .....of the sunshine.....

Every day starts with a color and ends with another....the primary and the secondary all in one.Weather its Green with Red making to Yellow or Blue and Red with a beautiful Purple or Green with Blue, making a Cyan and all of together gives the luminous White.......

So ,summing it up all we are colors and colors are form us....!
As WALT WHITMAN also said in his poem 'leaves of the grass' :

"See, the prismatic colors glistening and rolling....
Tufts of straw and sand...
Different colors.
pale gray and green .purple, white and gold......'

26/11: An awful day...!

pic courtsey:Islamicvoice.com

pic courtsey:islamicvoice.com

26/11, the day had been marked not just in history but also in our minds and hearts. It was an awful day not just for people who suffered for but every person of this nation.It not the battle of caste or creed but about our solidarity , and a threat to our existence.......!!!

These mishaps are designed to trigger communal conflagration, but how can any religion teach about homicide of innocent people.............??????
These people are mentally sick and by no means are religious.Religion always teaches us about love, faith,tranquility ,peace and brotherhood.........These terrorist attack puts a question mark in front of our significance....., our strength and displaying our weakness.....
The brutal incident took lives of our loved ones, leaving hundreds of homes shattered and our dear old politicians were just mere onlookers......i guess our life's comes cheap for them or are we just a vote bank during their political career.At such crucial time when we all should evolve as ONE......proving our strength and intervening between the evil of terror, our politicians are still busy comparing and counting lives of people killed during their ruling period.....',or just thinking that we are victims of destiny. Enough'........!!!!

Targetting innocence is a greater SIN!!!........The God .....The Allah....would be ashamed of himself for creating this brutality.
LETS all pray for people who have lost their life's in their battle against terrorism

Celebrations...!

Diwali, is always fun.........This year too, it was awesome. i decorated the house, tried 2 give it a new makeover with candles and diyas and flowers and lights, made rangoli,though i do not have patience but did i tried my hand and of course i got myself a new hair cut just one day prior to Diwali.

ohhh....its Diwali yaar....anyways,

There are few festivals when we can actually feel the festivity and celebration in the air.In every nook and corner we can see people dng things in their own special way,the festival of lights truly shows of its meaning, every where we can take our eyes we will see a glimpse of vivid colors of sparkling lights and the noise of bursting crackers.The world seems to be a happier place during this time of the year........

The yummy goodies and the mouth watering delicacies( though am nt very fond of sweets) that comes with this festival are the most and much awaited sweetness of the festival.........the world seems to be brighter and sweeter and in complete solace than usual or maybe its the happiness that comes from the bottom of my heart that everything seems better to me.

I truly felt blessed becoz i had my whole family with me to celebrate and thus added another wonderful memory/moment to my aesthetic life.....!

Happy Diwali...!

Diwali is time for fun.It is a festival of joy and lights.It is the festival of victory of truth over evil............
so i want to wish all my fellow blogger a happy and safe Diwali and also especially those who are feeling stranded and low..............................
come, life is calling :)
HAPPY DIWALI.........!

HIBERNATION......

My recent trip to a Cancer Hospital before leaving once again shivered my soul..., my thoughts ....and overall persona....!!!
What is Life...??? Good...or Bad...Everyday we keep asking ourselves the same questions over and over again but the answer remains unanswered......We always expect that like everything we do or say we get answers or feed back from other's, in the same way ,we expect that some day somebody will give us a definite answer........But in this quest ,we are left so irritated, and dis-satisfied and overall confused. We focus all our energy in finding the solution for the problem, but in other sense the problem doesn't exist..........We always want a rewind or forward button in our life so that we can keep editing our mistakes.But mistakes are the learning ground. It help us in becoming a better person or individual
Expectations are never ending............................with very expectation there comes a pressure to fulfill..When we fail to fulfill......it makes us restless........, unsatisfied.........., worthless.........and disappointed.When we came to life , we were given birth with some expectation, and all our life we carry expectations.......!!!!!!!!
This puzzle can not be solved...........its a maze of just questions and no answers...,the more we get into it deeper the more confused we are left.
During my visit to the hospital,i saw a very young child, must be month or two old was suffering from the deadliest disease called Cancer.The whole sight could shake any body's soul................It left me speechless and thoughtless and in a state of hibernation............................No thoughts are crossing my mind,except about life and death.Death is the ultimate answer,the unsurpassing truth and the whole irony of life.....................As i am writing this post my hand are still shivering, and the whole sight was an Un-forgetful experience.
I don't know what expectations they had, be it the child or his parents But one thing is for sure, when nothing works its HOPE..............
So , let just pray for the betterment of that child..
I hope he'll survive

Irresistible..............!

Though i have been adviced by my doctor to either stay away from my laptop or start using a mouse. But look at me ,writing this post again......

The desire to be on this world of blogging and of course the people,remember those unseen, unheard........................its completely irresistible.
So here i am with my short and sweet post, telling everyone that am still there.

Soul..........A remembrance...!

Life is so full of surprises.............it is when we thought that few things that do not matter to us at all, comes to us , in a completely different package.I was so deeply touched and it feels like a great loss..................!

The story goes like this,there was a blogger who was somewhere in this big- wide world, sharing his thought with other people . he shared his laughter, his sadness, his anger, his frustrations, his ego's, his heartbreaks, and everything he wishes for.....................!
Life and job were taking a toll, he was homesick and alone, missing his family and home- town. He made some friends and some enemies. But one fine day...! a comment from an anonymous blogger, changed everything he owned.
He lost his journey and moved to a different path , all alone, in another world, with a different name and a different identity...............Soul may take a different body but the quest remain eternal.............

So, my post is a remembrance and dedication to a wonderful person, a passionate writer, a great thinker, and a good soul............................. his "journey to remember" will always be remembered.Though he has changed his path and moved to a different life.........................his journey is forever............GOOD LUCK and GOOD BYE....dear soul...!

Mumbai Meri Jaan....Part II

For my Part II , i wanted to start with a zinger.....................but then nothing came into my mind.
But then its been really long that i have completed my post. So today i sat down, in a more relaxed mood, weather apparently better then other days.

As i have mentioned before in my earlier post that it was a nice and pleasant stay, esp. when you get a panoramic view from the window over looking the ocean and multi millionairs living as your neighbour's, this is a benefit joining Navy or any other armed forces , you get to live in the best of places in the world. the most poshest , the most happening, and the most livliest of places. Thanks to my brother , a Navy Officer, we get the best of facilities to enjoy.........................

So here i was,in the most pictureque environment.Day's started with a walk on the beach, with the spume touching my feet and ended up gazing at the wilderness of the ocean, the whole experience was by and large quite fulfilling and mesmerizing. I sat for hours and hours watching the white ocean and naval ships..............

So everthing was at my vicinity, fun , food shopping and partying. everthg best that Bombay can offer leaving behind the myraid problems of modern life............................

During my stay i went to U.S Club, good food and best view, that makesus go all over again . After the dinner we went for walk on the boundary just facing the sea ,as in high tide its not safe to go near the ocean, It was te most amazing time, with the most amazing person's of my life....
Then i went to uptown places life Pause, Tito's etc........ with murky depth of smoke and loud music, good places to unwind oneself with drinks , chat and food.........The cafe culture is quite strong in bombay and the food is also divine.

So, thats it, my pleasant lil' stay in mumbai, though i liked and enjoyed but still dropped the idea to live there and pack my bags to Delhi again.......

Mumbai ....mere jaan ! Part I

Life in a metro..............No, its not about our very own Bollywood movie but the people living and flourishing and sprouting and mushrooming and spring into a new life everyday in Mumbai.......The city has all the Z's to it,it has the zest to evolve and zeal to survive.......Though life is quite mechanical and erractic and zombies in every nook and corner but still the there is something that makes the city interesting and clicking......

My recent trip was by far a relaxing and rejuvenating experience.My life was at a complete halt after tossing and turning between work and leading a pretty mundane exitence .
Though i have been to Mumbai , but this time it was different. Maybe it was choosing in between Mumbai and Delhi so the whole comparison came in....

By far i realised that Mumbai....the city has a alluring persona to it, though its busy, noisy, dirty specially in monsoons,flooding with water,traffic jams, narrowness, congestion, pit holes, people jumping and running to catch a over- crowded local train and not to forget the slums..... but nothing dampen the high-sprited mumbaikars.The city is exploding with energy and growth...

Commuting by car is a problem especially for people form North, coz we have the habbit of wide and smooth roads,easy connectivity and a relaxed and lil' laid back attitude.Maybe, it might not be true for everbody ,who travel between Noida and Gurgoan on a daily basis.

Mumbai is still basking with the glory of colonial rule...the old building and monument showcase the ethnicity and culture of this city.Though many old mills and compounds have given place to high rising and growing demands of city. But still ,the city has multi-cultural and multi-lingual touch to it.....authenticating its presence on the world map as the most popular cities in the world.

Mumbai ,"the city of dreams" is a home to hundreds and thousands of people who arrive in the city with zilch,and made fortune for themselves.The city with its fanatic lifestyle and hul-la-ba-loo still facinates the dreamers.

"Mumbai the city that never sleeps" holds true coz as the day settle down to dusk ,the magnificent city shows another facet, its NIGHT LIFE.The way stars twinkle in the galaxy......so is this city,illuminated with billion of lights, twinkling and sparkling,casting a spell on us.......... Is that a hallucination,No its true. The mantra is" Work Hard And Party Harder".Though Delhi has the best Night Life in the country.

Another difference was in the dressing sense, though i think quite high of apna Delhi but general people in mumbai ,give a miss to their dressing style. They are quite SIMPLE....in taste, then their cousin Delhites.Maybe the hum-dum of life leaves no scope for every piece to fall in place....whatever it is its "THE COOL" attitude of Mumbai.

The only similarity found in both the cities is its sky rocketting price of real estate.Both Mumbai and Delhi real state prices are sky high, comparing with New York, London,Hong Kong,Tokyo
Delhi being the capital of our country and Mumbai, the commercial and entertainment capital of our country.Though both the cities have contrasting differences yet they are " The Dream Catcher" for "the young and restless" and for people with" never say die" attitude..........................

signing off to mumbai....!

Dance of poverty, Traffic and Traffic lights

Yesterday,my Dad came for some official work in Gurgaon, He had some meeting and all that stuff, so i took an off from my work and was the official driver of the day...Though i love driving but driving in Delhi is a hellish experience .......its a complete nightmare.....!!!
So, as we started a bit late in the morning in order to avoid the office hour traffic.But unfortunately there was a flood of cars on the road, huge traffic jams on DND, on the ring road,and every place of Delhi and NCR. It appeared as though a river of cars flowing on the roads. There was no end to the traffic...Cars moving bumper to bumper as if tryin hard to crawl on the road. Inspite of all the pain, some people cannot stop themselves from changing one lane to another.
Anyways, as we were moving or crawling towards our destination, we stoped at one of the red lights . As usual the salesman, the booksellers, the flower seller and of course the beggars knocking at our window panes. It is a regular site for all the commuters stopping at traffic signals.
What caught my attention was actually a SITE, it just happened that a shabbily dressed girl, knocked at my window to grab my attention and as usual asked for money.Though i never look into their eyes, but on that day i looked at her and told her No.Soon the girl went from one car to another, finally she stood near a car, with a chauffeur and a man sitting at the back seat. The girl tried reluctantly hard to get some money but the man instead of a SIMPLE NO, opened the door of his car and hit it hard at her that she fell on the other car,soon the traffic started moving and she had a narrow escape from death.
Though i am not patronising the beggars here but IS this Humane.................???
I don't know what state of mind was that man in...?that it made him do so.......... but the question here is Why did he consider her life to be worthless.................???
If something happened to that girl who would be held responsible for it......???
Though these people do all the tricks in order to grab attention, they swap their kids, steal , put bandages etc......to show their misery and gain sympathy.
The dance of Poverty can be seen on every nook and corner but its highly visible on these red lights. These kids are born there, their parents, grandparents, and their siblings are into this profession only. These kids ,right from the young age have mastered the art of begging.
Though whatever meagre amount they earn, is the only source of income for the family.

I am not aiming this post for requesting public or asking NGO's to work on this direction or start giving them money. Neither am i askin to help them come out of this poverty and brutal life. But it was a sight that made me SAD, it showed that some of us do not have a heart even to say a simple No.
It was hangover that will be with me for days to come......
I simply fail to understand why some people behave so brutally......!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chill ....!

"Curiosity kills the man"i guess holds true for me.In my zest to help a person in need or well as it seems to be.... took such ugly shape ................which was beyond imagination.A small comment to cheer up a person ,unseen and unheard can land me up in such a trouble...
At times when you see....ah! read somebody so troubled , u r touched down by the misery of lonely heart.It was not something out of the box,or tryin to be modest ... its humane after all......isn't it??? It was just a humble approach to sympathise. I felt that i was in the same frame of mind and there is nothing wrong in helping a deserted soul...!

But ........it was completely Contradictory, Unimaginable, Surprising and Disappointing too,when sensible people waste their time in contradicting each other just to prove their own ego's.
I completely edited this post after reading a comment on soul's blog.its ridiculous to laugh at smbody's pain and its equally offencive to say SORRY.Does it hold any meaning to such emotionless people, who makes a mock out of others misery??.
I believe in KARMA......"Whatever you sow so shall you reap". I think some people needs complete cleaning of their mind, body and soul.Time changes and so does the situations ....its easy to mock but difficult to console...i did not understand the HUMOUR SENSE of your comment.Lastly, i would like to add that you are always alone even in the crowd.
still i want and hope things to settle down soon.......................................................................................................!

The Verve - Bitter Sweet Symphony

simply awesome..!

Flashback...!

I never realized that time flies so quickly , as i was thinking of my good old days, i went to my home town. My mom asked me to take a look at my old stuff as she was thinking of discarding them...
I went into flashback mode as i opened my old cupboards filled with books n loads of papers.
I came across my dairy in which i used to make all my daily enteries. i felt i was such a silly girl..! , scraping down my life on pieces of paper......i found the smallest n tiniest thing still kept the way i left them.
As i blew away the dust of time........ it unveiled the sweet old memories of my past. I still have collection of cards my friends gave me .....my autograph book.....in which i used to take autographs of my favourite teachers n those who were my inspiration, my scrap book with details filled by my closest friends.............., old photographs with my classmates..., my report cards...,my poem book.... fortunately my passion for it died due to lack of time, small tokens from my first crush safely kept as memento , pasted in my diary and every unimaginable stuff....ahh!
Seeing all that stuff,i felt as if i had travelled in the by lanes of my childhood...i felt a bit stupid and childish.! but then it had such simplicity and innocence bestowed into it
In this fast paced life, full of infidelity, filth and hypocrisy ,we often miss such simplicity, such innocence...that we carry in our past.I almost idol worshiped, one's whom i love and care.They were all unsung heroes of my life.Childhood has such melody and music to itself but it loses its lustre as we grow up.I wish if i could bring the soul of my childhood back into my life again..

An extract from one of my poems i penned down years before...............

If i could read his mind,
I would have wandered, to know the things untold,
If i could read his mind,
I would have known the un-surpassing truth,
If i could read his mind,
I would have known the depth of unfolded layers,
If i could read his mind,
I would have known the truth of my reflection,
If i could read his mind,
I would have known the saga far beyond convention,
If i could read his mind .
I would have eased the pain of wounded heart,
But alas!
I can't read his mind,
I can only see the symphony of mind in despair........................

rashmii

Happy Birthday 2 me.....!

June is the most warmest month of the year but this year thanks to global warming or whatever or thank God..............! it was quite pleasant......................
Birthdays are most specials days weather u r young or old......................though its a process of aging but we do enjoy.............isn't it????
plenty of phone calls, gifts n loads of surprises esp from unexpected peoples.
I love everythg bout this day. it makes me feel special.....
But when i was giving my board exams it brought lot of fear and anxiety coz the percentage wud decide my mood for party....during my school days ,i cud nt enjoy my birthday much with friends as it use to fall during summer vacations.
So thankfully atleast there are few good things when you grow up.
Though the process of aging is one of the bitter truth of birthdays but who cares............in a way you are becoming wiser and more experienced. Learning the do's and don't of life.
The learning process is never ending as Life....We keep commiting mistakes but we keep learning from them too...
At times, i feel growing up brings solitary life with it .all the loneliness and boredom.
If i go in the flashback mode then i wud say,College life was the best years of our lives, the wonder years. ek dum bindass!..............ah..!the good old days.We really had good times with my gang of friends.
College brings the real cool memories of loads of masti... n fun....I wish if life at that point wud still down and we can remain restless souls forever with no tensions and no regrets...........

oouch....

Ouch...............my dear lil' back got really hurt.i just happened a few days back when i was sitting and in my house , as i bent down to pick up snthg, i couldn't move a bit. i was in a terrible state, there was so much pain that i was in tears.My maid happened to be there at that time, she somehw managed to hold me.She tried every possible thing to reduce my pain. I felt so stiff and so helpless......
Finally my husband, was there to rescue me like a knight in shinning armour, he took me in his arms and lay ed me down on the bed.Though this story might look like a movie scene..................But i realized a very basic fact....."that life is so unpredictable....". Anythg can happen with us in split of seconds ,whch we have never thought of even in our wildest dreams. I mean... being very concious of my health, i play tennis en all..., am a complete health freak.If that back pain can make me such a helpless person.
Life is really short and we should live to its fullest.................

I Have Been Tagged....!

Lately this tagg thing just happened with meeee toooooooo. A fellow blogger just taged me to my surprise??? and saved me form d pain of cooking up another post for my blog. Since these days am packed with so much work that i hardly even manage to even get a sneak peek of my blog.
so here i am with all the cutie- cutie stuff to read. Thanks Soul.....


1)LAST MOVIE U SAW IN A THEATRE? Indiana Jones

2) WHAT BOOK ARE U READING?? Though life itself is a book to read but still Kite Runner is at my self.

3) FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? Scrabble

4) FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? Being a girl and into fashion feild, i like to read Vogue but still i like India Today coz it keeps me updated.

5) FAVOURITE SMELLS? anythg thats subtle...

6) WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? Being Lonely.......

7) WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN U WAKE? About God........!

8) FAVOURITE FASTFOOD PLACE? though am nt junkie but when i binge on fastfood its always Pizza

9) FUTURE CHILDS NAME? It depends.

10) FINISH THIS STATEMENT---'IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D'....be me.

11) DO U DRIVE FAST?Yes

12)DO U SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? No

13)STORMS--COOL OR SCARY? Scaryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

14)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? Maruti 800, which my dad gifted

15) FAVOURITE DRINK? Water, i can drink gallons

16)FINISH THIS STATEMENT-IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD....Just relax..........zzz

17)DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI? No

18)IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY OTHER COLOUR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE? I got it done so many times nw that i want the natural color

20)NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS U HAVE LIVED IN? Delhi, Kanpur,wud soon be shifting to Bombay

21) FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Tennis, Cricket

22)ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENTnd o THIS TO YOU? ..It was so sweet of him to remember me

23)WHATS UNDER YOUR BED? My Slippers

24)WOULD U LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN?? Sure ...???

25)MORNING PERSON OR NIGHT OWL? Both..!

26)OVER EASY OR SUNNY SIDE UP?Sunny side up...!

27) FAVOURITE PLACE TO RELAX? My bedroom

28)FAVOURITE PIE? Choco pie

29)FAVOUR2ITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR? Vanilla n choclate

30)OF ALL THE PEOPLE U HAVE TAGGED, WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?...........I dono

Madonna feat. justin timberlake - 4 Minutes (Official video)

i just loooooooove this video...Madonna at this age is lookin hot n glamorous. Way 2 go...tic tock

Doris Day - Que Sera, Sera (Whatever Will Be Will Be)

inspiring song.........

"Que Sera Sera"

"Whtever Will Be,Will Be".............First published in 1956, is a popular song written by Jay Livington and Ray Evans.

I guess, it holds true to our lives. As said by William Shakespeare" the world a stage .............." we all are born to play our respective roles, the role of mother, father, son , daughter, wife, husband ...............................
whatever is destined have to happen no matter what happens. we can at times neutralise its effect or frequency but we still have to face it.
In spite of ever thing , whatever situation we are into Life moves on like a cascade or a waterfall making its new paths and ways bearing all its ups and downs, battling the weather,resurfacing its self , gathering it all again and moving ahead................
life is not a bed of roses lets face it.................................!!!!!

Final Journey......!!!!

April 1st 2007,though its a fool's day but for me it was bidding farewell to one of my most prized and precious possession.My sweet lil' CESAR, a male Dalmatian.
This polka dotted beauty with beautiful golden eyes,was an absolute masterpiece, a truly magnificent,obedient and faithful friend, who bestowed all his love on us.
He was a true gem, with him i felt secure and loved .
Like a loyal frd he always stood by me.......loosing him was a great loss.
I can just wish wherever he may be "May His Soul Rest In Peace"

Farewell dear friend..................

Circle Of Life...!!!!!

It is often said that life revolves around a circle.there is always a new beginning after an awful end.The old leaves of a tree weather away to give way to new life.As autumm is followed by spring . So is life ,it brings different facets each day.

Lately, i too have started believing in Circle of life,. everyday i explore a new thing.whatever we do or even believe in is all bout our Karma.i believe when we try to aviod a certain situation it tends come face 2 face.

Recently ,as i was recovering form a heartbreaking experience, trying build in my trust in a person who kind of fiddled with my feelings but was again left in pain....!!!!. I keep asking myself, wheather loving smbdy unconditionally and expecting a bit of LOVE. ....Isn't it unfair when u love smbdy and u feel cheated and betrayed......

I think this is life all bout...!!! and this is called KARMA. i am waiting patiently for the things to settle down and realise the importance of love and above all relations.May be this is the circle of life and it will soon pass away...

Dream Dream Dream

There is a tiny place,

deep in your heart

where you keep your

most secret dreams.......

And there are some people

who keep their dreams

locked up tighte forever.

But dreams weren't meant

to be locked up.

They are meant to be

brought out

into the sunlight

where they can

take shape and fly.

you can make your dreams

come true, you know.

All you have to do

is believe in yourself

and let those dreams soar.

Then the world will

indeed be yours


Linda Lee Elrod